just another sad story

Don't know actually how to say or even tell this...
But first of all won't write anybody name of course...and for that someone..just take it easy because i am not mad at all with u..I am not angry
too..I was only upset..upset with myself actually..
Remember what I said..I don't angry with u at all..hehehe...
Em first of all maybe I would confess that I really have feeling to that girl..and yes she know it..
The problem started when the first time my mind though that she also have the same feeling.. I keep that mind until one day I ask her seriously that wheyher she had that kind of feeling or not..
Even though I can't be her couple because of one and another reason but I just want to know..
Why??because by knowing the answer I can know too whether I was right or being deceive by my mind this whole time..
But it turned out to be my worst prediction..for this whole time,I was only being deceived by my own mind..the fact is she don't have the feeling but I was too over confident and feel that she got the feeling..
This is what actually make me upset..this kind of childish mind I have!! This over confident thinking I have!! This!! All of this can't be kept forever for me..
I have to change this kind of mind!!! And I was really grateful that she tell me the truth so I can realised something bad which can make me better...thanks anyway..

Em she ask me not to wait..do you know what will I do?? Don't know?? Let me tell u the answer.. Yes!!! I don't know too hahahahah...this part is secret...
Em because of this I want to tell for all of u,don't afraid to love someone..because it's really nice to know that feeling..allthough u get heartbreak,no problem..don't commit suicide too..try to understand and fighting man!!!! Just like what I am doing for 'someone' which maybe my friend name betharia know ahahahhahahahaha...


 Love is beautiful..but life is even more wonderful!!!try to enjoy it hehehe...
See ya again friends..

1st day of the second journey..

Hai friend..
Seems it's been quite long since last time wrote blog hehehe..
Feels like kind new one for me actually hahah..
Anyway today is the first day of my college in 2011 and start it with smthing that is not good..

At first I don't know my schedule and I promise to wake up at 7 but the moment I woke up and saw the clock makes my mouth said " Gosh!!! I'm late!!!" Then I quickly skip bath,then I changed my trousers and run as fast as I could to my university..when I arrive'I check the shedule and shout one more time ' Gosh!! I truly late this time!!!" realised that the time woke up which is 9 am is the time my first lesson start..hahaha...

All of you can imagine the continue of the story wkwkwkw...

What a horrible morning heh??
Yet still try to enjoy it wkwkwkwkw...

I think that's all.. see ya again peps..wkwkkw

New Year!!!New Year!!!!hahaha

it seems today is the first day of 2011 i write blog hehehehe...

love it so much....thinking about whole things that i've done last year makes who i am right now and maybe now i could start to think what can i do this whole year to create who i am next year......and i need useful things to do of course hahahah....
maybe it's to deep but hopefully you could understand this word heheheh...

this new year is the first time for me not to spend it like play firework,singing,dancing and other fun things but i done it with something real different...
but i like it a lot and because of it i feel some changes happen inside of me....

the last week before new year i realize that i'm so lucky although i can't went home to medan....
I could meet a very honor teacher who teaches us,i meet a lot of friends,even foreigner,i meet a lot of communities,a lot of types from people,their attitude,their way of thinking and living and other else.....
honestly i was very shocked to know that western people are more serious to take this teaching than some of us....
they really focused and they can sit still for an hour....O.O
shocking isn't it....
the truth is I really admire them...really really admire them hahaha
i hope i could meet them again next year...hehehehe
i also hope to meet my teacher again....and could take picture or talk with him personally...hahahah

so....maybe next year i still won't going home hehehhe....

have a nice day friends...sometimes there's some choices to choose...each one have the positive and negative...choose the best and try not to regret your decision....
just be happy heheheh...

see ya peeps...

Freaking moment....

Just having such a hard work with cleaning the house,making my hands hurt and tired...
But it's better than to know that there's a possibility that i won't go home this january...
damn...what a disappointment....what a shame....
after i know this news,i got dreams for 2 days in a row that i met the girl that i like from medan....
seems i missed her too much ckckckc....

aaahhh....there's also the last test i have to fight for...seems everything getting worse and worse....
Anyway...Hi peeps...long time no see hahahahaha....

Wish i got doraemon by my side....Then there's nothing to worry about...hahahahahha
have a nice saturday night friends...

Once in the last 50 years...

Today exactly at 12 pm bandung was having a very heavy rain...It was really a horrible raining,making me can't even out from my place to go to my uni...
so i just wait and sit still but yet something worried me...
And finally my expectation come true...
The Human made disaster was coming...Everywhere nearby my house was flood...It was almost 1 meter from the ground and the worst is The flood enter my place too..Even though i lived in the third floor but it still have to help the first floor to swipe out all the water..
what a sensation i have today and i quite shocked after looking at the small river near my place...
The water flows very fast just like what happen in tsunami...
It flows very fast and drag everything in their way...watching it makes me feel thrilled and quite frightened,imagined how if i was drag by that water....

hahahhaa...Yet today i can playing with rain again just like what i've done while i was child...

and the weather is just the similar weather which it was chilly and very nice weather...

Dag..Dig...Dug..The heartbeat comes from my chest while thinking about the coming test i have to take....

see ya again peeps...Have a nice saturday night heheheh :)

It's my risk...

Just a couple days ago i figured out that i must stop to online first....
stop chatting,and even play facebook...
hahahaha...
maybe it has been a very hard situation that i have to take this decision...
It was not other than my bad mark and my totally massive assignment....
For the assignment,it's not because the amount but it was because my lacking of idea to make the design hahahaha
And for my test...i got a quite horrible mark....making me to have to try harder and fight harder for my final test so i won't replay the same subject next semester hahahaha....
so maybe i will unknown for about 1 month or more wkwkwkw....
hope this can work so my mark will be much better hahaha...
Ah...sorry but i'm not being arrogant or forget my friend wkwkwk...
After all the test i will search for all of u again...i promise wkwkkwkw....
but i will never stop blogging....just wait for my condition here...if even you want to know ahhahha....

just the same weather i had here...
Even some addition come such as th warmth from some of my friend and also my brother,as well as my cousin...Happy feeling flow through my body after taught some children drawing today...hehehe...

Right then..Have a wonderful saturday night for all my friends around the world....
see you guys again hahahha

A night to fight...

Just recovering from the illness yesterday..just some headache and fever to accompany my night..
Not the worst night i ever get however hahahaha...Just thanked buddha i don't get the worst one...
but luckily when i ty to get up from my bed,i feel my head better an i try to work some homework out..
fortunately can finish it.. Just need some strong will to finish it ahahaha...

even though i got some illness,i feel quite happy because yesterday my group wins the first futsal match held by us in OBC...(just the place to play futsal near my campus)
and i score a goal...even just a goal,i feel happy because could make some attempt to help the other score hahahha...
but some bad things happen,not only because it was raining before my friend's match finished,but also some teams argued because of their losing situation and they try to point toward other people that they were wrong..the fact is that was the worst thing to do.. they should cooperate and also accept the lose together...wkwkwkwkw...

fuuuuh....what a very nice weather...the chilly and nice weather i had here in bandung wkwkwkw.. can't be patient anymore to finally can go home to medan wkwkwk....i'm looking forward to it hahha...
even though there's the final test i must face hahahaha....

alright then..Hope all of you could have a wonderful day...
see ya friends wkwkw