just another sad story

Don't know actually how to say or even tell this...
But first of all won't write anybody name of course...and for that someone..just take it easy because i am not mad at all with u..I am not angry
too..I was only upset..upset with myself actually..
Remember what I said..I don't angry with u at all..hehehe...
Em first of all maybe I would confess that I really have feeling to that girl..and yes she know it..
The problem started when the first time my mind though that she also have the same feeling.. I keep that mind until one day I ask her seriously that wheyher she had that kind of feeling or not..
Even though I can't be her couple because of one and another reason but I just want to know..
Why??because by knowing the answer I can know too whether I was right or being deceive by my mind this whole time..
But it turned out to be my worst prediction..for this whole time,I was only being deceived by my own mind..the fact is she don't have the feeling but I was too over confident and feel that she got the feeling..
This is what actually make me upset..this kind of childish mind I have!! This over confident thinking I have!! This!! All of this can't be kept forever for me..
I have to change this kind of mind!!! And I was really grateful that she tell me the truth so I can realised something bad which can make me better...thanks anyway..

Em she ask me not to wait..do you know what will I do?? Don't know?? Let me tell u the answer.. Yes!!! I don't know too hahahahah...this part is secret...
Em because of this I want to tell for all of u,don't afraid to love someone..because it's really nice to know that feeling..allthough u get heartbreak,no problem..don't commit suicide too..try to understand and fighting man!!!! Just like what I am doing for 'someone' which maybe my friend name betharia know ahahahhahahahaha...


 Love is beautiful..but life is even more wonderful!!!try to enjoy it hehehe...
See ya again friends..

1st day of the second journey..

Hai friend..
Seems it's been quite long since last time wrote blog hehehe..
Feels like kind new one for me actually hahah..
Anyway today is the first day of my college in 2011 and start it with smthing that is not good..

At first I don't know my schedule and I promise to wake up at 7 but the moment I woke up and saw the clock makes my mouth said " Gosh!!! I'm late!!!" Then I quickly skip bath,then I changed my trousers and run as fast as I could to my university..when I arrive'I check the shedule and shout one more time ' Gosh!! I truly late this time!!!" realised that the time woke up which is 9 am is the time my first lesson start..hahaha...

All of you can imagine the continue of the story wkwkwkw...

What a horrible morning heh??
Yet still try to enjoy it wkwkwkwkw...

I think that's all.. see ya again peps..wkwkkw

New Year!!!New Year!!!!hahaha

it seems today is the first day of 2011 i write blog hehehehe...

love it so much....thinking about whole things that i've done last year makes who i am right now and maybe now i could start to think what can i do this whole year to create who i am next year......and i need useful things to do of course hahahah....
maybe it's to deep but hopefully you could understand this word heheheh...

this new year is the first time for me not to spend it like play firework,singing,dancing and other fun things but i done it with something real different...
but i like it a lot and because of it i feel some changes happen inside of me....

the last week before new year i realize that i'm so lucky although i can't went home to medan....
I could meet a very honor teacher who teaches us,i meet a lot of friends,even foreigner,i meet a lot of communities,a lot of types from people,their attitude,their way of thinking and living and other else.....
honestly i was very shocked to know that western people are more serious to take this teaching than some of us....
they really focused and they can sit still for an hour....O.O
shocking isn't it....
the truth is I really admire them...really really admire them hahaha
i hope i could meet them again next year...hehehehe
i also hope to meet my teacher again....and could take picture or talk with him personally...hahahah

so....maybe next year i still won't going home hehehhe....

have a nice day friends...sometimes there's some choices to choose...each one have the positive and negative...choose the best and try not to regret your decision....
just be happy heheheh...

see ya peeps...