Come on!!!

hey guys... finally found out the result of my blood test...and it haven't normal yet...
I don't know how could it happen but it makes me feel sorry for my friends..
cause i've promise them to have a dinner when i'm better...and i feel that it will be very hard to get out from my house now...
Hopefully my mom will give me the permission...cause maybe the next year it will very hard to meet all of them again...
why?? i can't tell you something that haven't 100% sure to be happened..
sometimes it bothered me too.. how could i tell all of my friends about it..maybe they will be angry, maybe they would be very disappointed..but there are no other option... i really need to keep this shut until it is really happened cause i don't want anything excited happened cause it will make me real hard to do it...

hey new year is approaching...and still i can't be spending it with good this like BLIA old n new celebration or even The Dharma Retreat which i've been waiting for whole year...
maybe i just not lucky enough probably it will the time to spend with my family...hehe

anyway pretty ross!!!! miss u hahaha...long time no see.. :p
take care...

Comeback?

hey guys.. it's been quite a while since the last time i wrote in my blog...
Some of you maybe miss me..some may not hahhhaa...too overconfident perhaps..
Just wanna say that nowadays i got "hepatitis A" that makes me went home to Medan 2 weeks ago and yet still couldn't fully recovered..
heard from my mom is that the virus will completely disappeared for about 5 months and for that 5 months i can't play soccer,gym,eating deep fried food...o..gosh...i feel like i'm in hell..hahaha
But this time i also got some fortunate in my hand..not only get my dad's phone which quite new,i also get new ipod and also the newest album of jay..hahaha...
at least it is hard for me to feel bored with this kind of things hahahaha...
and me too could went out with my friends after checking my blood diagnosis..

And probably too this could be the very last time i could go out wit them..
quite sad there's  some friend who couldn't home this year hehehe...
this is just a probability but yet maybe next year it will be very had to went home hahaha...
i'll tell u the reason when it has become a reality hehehe...

share some pics hahahha

hahaha...new haircut..makes me look younger...don't you agree hhahahha...

liar

i've been called liar just now..
yes i admit i've lied to you last night...
but do you know i've done it because i don't want to hurt your feeling.
i know you're alone in your home waiting for someone to came and accompany u.
but suddenly my friend ask me to come because they've waited for me..
maybe it's true that i'm too greedy so i took both option which after going to have a talk with then i'll go to your place..
But maybe this is the cause of greedy, you'll getting trouble..
Sorry,i'm not making my friend first rather than u..but i just want to make both sides happy.
sorry because i don't aware it will make u hurt.
u also maybe dunno how fast i try to drive so i won't miss any minute to be together. and maybe how much i don't care to sleep just to see your face..
funny isn't it?
and now u said u like other really makes me diss..hahhaa.. and maybe me myself too arrogant so i feel u got this feeling for me..

sorry maybe i'm too good to other people so i don't aware that by doing that i might hurt some people's feeling..

anyway,it's time to say gudbye, i don't know how things will work out. bu maybe it's true that i'm too soon to love someone..
see you again my lovely friends.

Love??skill?? whatever...

Am i in condition where i like a girl again?
honestly it's been a quite time since i do some close approaching to someone and i feel i'm in a very bad condition..
hahahahha.. just feel pesimist..i think probably my skill is vanished gradually..wakakaka

talking about skills..recently i felt my skill in playing soccer is not as good as i used to..
feeling like my feet doesn't want to obey me anymore..
and the result is...great depression came to me..aigoooya..
need to practise more...

not in a good condition lately,
often headache...having nightmare in 2 days continuesly..
feeling like going to sick..however still in the mood to make people happy..haha
so smile and your day will be better..
congrats my bepu..for your visa..and again..wish u to have a very great study there..
and wish to meet you again in the nest year if i am coming home..hehe

to Ms preeetooy...

good evening peps..
first of all i would say that i'm really sorry for my friend which had been hurt by me...
Honestly i just haven't really determined yet whom i really like...
sometimes i said i like you but yet i fell like i'm into 2 person's heart...
this is why i'm not dare to take the chances for us to be closer..
It's because i don't want to hurt your feeling when it's wrong..
so maybe it's better to tell you first than when both of us really close..it'll maybe hurt you more..
and me myself know that you really can't forget the boy who really make you go crazy...( aussie boy )
and i don't want any of us regret when we take the option...
this is why i got hesitate to be a lot closer...
really sorry...

and as you know,this is what makes me say that i'm not that "good"...
even in fact i'm really not good person..i admit it...
and i'm in the progress to make me better...
i don't know how it will turn out,will the result is i'm better or worse,i'll take it..
but i hope i'll be better..Please don't wait for me..(sorry if i'm to "big head")
Because you got a very bright future..a very super duper bright future that even me can't reach it..
and i hope that you can forget the aussie boy if you don't feel comfortable and find another china boy which is very nice and real good in inner or even physic beauty..
you really deserve it.. in fact you are a really good girl that will turn to a marvelous woman..hehehe...

it's really nice to know you and having a chat,webcam,or even talking to you..hehehe...
and i would love to be your friends and also best friend (be pu) hehehehe... how bout that??hehe
from leetoooy...wkakakaka...

sorry y...comment it to know your response..

I'm back again!!!

hahahahhaa....i'm starting it with a smile peps...
it's been a quite a long time since the last time i wrote blog...maybe almost 2 or 3 month i think..
so...
lots of good news and bad news have come to me in this whole timeout....
not only that, me myself also enjoying watching variety show like "Running man" which causing me a very horrible scream,laugh,laugh till cry,or even stomachace disease...
i really suggest all of you watching it...hehehe..
it's really a very nice break for you who got a really busy and lousy activity whole day..hahahaha...

but...but...and my butt...
when it came to things such as problems...nothing can make them easier to be dealing with,even using all good methods...
not only problems in what i am doing now,or what i am studying now but also what i am feeling now...
me have been feeling unsure who the girl i really like right now...it's really confusing right,sometimes i fell like i'm into this girl but suddenly i realize i was wrong and it'll happen all the time...
i dunno why i could be like this.. some girls told me that it's because i've been good to all girls,so i'm not only making them misunderstood but also making myself more confuse of it...
so what i'm doing now is i try to give the right place for those who i really like and who i felt only as a friend..or even a bestfriend..
Yet I'm still a Loner....
For what i've done in this whole 19 years that makes you misunderstood, I'm sorry..so sorry...
anyway pep..i'll try to keep in touch as often as possible..
so every good advise tht i receive could i pass to all of you so all of us also could be a better person...

oh yes!!! tomorrow my niece will be marry...sounds weird right??yup she's almost 22 but because her grandmother is my aunt so she is my niece then..hhahaha... time moves really fast, right?
congrats to her and hope she will be a very nice wife and mother in the next few years later...
chukaee!!!!!

anyway wish me to be a better person and better man!!!seumdwa!!
kansahamnida....

i'm in koreafever!!!hahahaha

Happy bornday for me!!!!

Hi guys!!!it's been a quite long time for me to skip writting blog ahahhaha...

First of all I want to said thank you very much to those who have said many good things for me..and wished me to get the best..honestly I am very happy,really happy and I 'll never forget this surely...heheh...

Em actually for me,the best thing that I like is not the wishing,the party,the cake,or the present (maybe present is better ) hahhaha...but what I feel very grateful is that many people remember my birthday!!!this is what the most important things for me... At least I know that I've done such many great things in my past so everybody can remember me..yeay!!!hahahaha...This is the best feeling..
Even though I know maybe some people said happy birthday because they saw in fb or other social network..but I really grateful for those who care to write or even only RT hahahha...
Anyway today I get a lot more lesson how to be a grown up person...hahahaha...thank to you all...and surely I will too remember all of u!!!hahahha..
Em surely I will try to know u better after 4 years...hahaha..

Regards...
Lee
Wan
Yen
Di
Po
Ni
Jan

my comeback!!!

It's been quite a long time since the last blog I've written hahaha...
Maybe sometimes people confuse why I always add "hahaha" in the end of some sentences...let me tell u the reason..it's because I love to smile and laugh..not only that..I also want to tell everybody that I'm happy even sometimes it's untrue hehehehe...
Enough for the melancholist style..
hai guys!!!!recently I've been into some music...let me tell you the titles..they are the rocketeer,the time,everybody,and other else..they really drive me crazy..they help me to become very happy and on fire!!hahahah...
You can try it!!!haha...

Yet recently I have some 'hope' again even though finally I realize it was an empty hope hehehe...
See ya again peps...try to enjoy this life..just like me...hyaaaat..hahahahah...

everbody

actually the title i took from a song by ingrid michaelson...
i'm not quite sure you know about it hehhehe...
damn!! it's a nice song...
just want to tell that everbody was really important whoever they are..
even though they are poor,sick or whatever..
they are really important...so try to respect them...if can't then learn to respect them..

actually i dunno what feeling comes to me right now till i wrote about all this shit...
maybe i just want to tell something important..maybe not....

back to me!!
now sitting at the floor,writing some blog then finishing the miniature and all the damn task..
hahahha...feeling that i never get refreshing memory...wkwkwkw...
yet i love it....
14 february is coming near...oooh heck!!!I don't got any girlfriend...so maybe i'll just past it trough and look it just as usual monday...
hahhahhaa....hoping to get some chocolate..yummy...my favourite  snack!!!hhahaha

for those who are lucky...do your best for her...maybe try chocolate inside flowers....wkwkkw...
for those who's not...don't be sad..a lot of people will accompany u..hahaha..and believe..your time will come...
see ya peos..
nice night and dream...

For my friends!! read this!!wkwk

Something good will not happen everytime. That's what I learned from this week after I went home to medan..
Actually this holidaywhich is only for one week even though most of it was because I skip the lesson..but yet I feel really happy in medan...
I can meet my family..my grandma n grandpa..I also can meet my teacher..
My nice and crazy teacher..not forget my friend..who's lot crazier..and funnier...
And I meet the one I truly like(seems she was really mysterious so I can't tell you)...even though maybe between us is hopeless..yet I really happy to meet and talk to her...even maybe she really want to say gudbye to me..hahaa..or maybe some of my friends tell me to forget about her...yes,this is another lesson I've learnt from my friend...
Sorry too for the girls who have the one side like with me..sorry..I don't mean it..

And now I've returned to bandung to fight against the monster name architecture.. Sometimes I feel that I just want to quit it and take something else..
But I think it's the worst choice..because I have to do my best to fight it...even I got a bunch of task to be finish...and that's really kill my sense...

This makes me realise that what happen to us is not always something good...
If I could describe this then I could tell that a week in medan feels like a very really good dream for me...and when I wake up..I realised that I was in a shit situation..hahaha...but the memory I've made in medan will stay forever in my head...
Thanks guys and girls...
You really help to relieve my stress this week and happy chinese new year..

Hope u enjoy it...
Love isn't something we can achieve without any fight..is it true?
Y or N???
:D
Next time I'll write about something happy..I won't lose to a girl with 'pret'!ahahah

just another sad story

Don't know actually how to say or even tell this...
But first of all won't write anybody name of course...and for that someone..just take it easy because i am not mad at all with u..I am not angry
too..I was only upset..upset with myself actually..
Remember what I said..I don't angry with u at all..hehehe...
Em first of all maybe I would confess that I really have feeling to that girl..and yes she know it..
The problem started when the first time my mind though that she also have the same feeling.. I keep that mind until one day I ask her seriously that wheyher she had that kind of feeling or not..
Even though I can't be her couple because of one and another reason but I just want to know..
Why??because by knowing the answer I can know too whether I was right or being deceive by my mind this whole time..
But it turned out to be my worst prediction..for this whole time,I was only being deceived by my own mind..the fact is she don't have the feeling but I was too over confident and feel that she got the feeling..
This is what actually make me upset..this kind of childish mind I have!! This over confident thinking I have!! This!! All of this can't be kept forever for me..
I have to change this kind of mind!!! And I was really grateful that she tell me the truth so I can realised something bad which can make me better...thanks anyway..

Em she ask me not to wait..do you know what will I do?? Don't know?? Let me tell u the answer.. Yes!!! I don't know too hahahahah...this part is secret...
Em because of this I want to tell for all of u,don't afraid to love someone..because it's really nice to know that feeling..allthough u get heartbreak,no problem..don't commit suicide too..try to understand and fighting man!!!! Just like what I am doing for 'someone' which maybe my friend name betharia know ahahahhahahahaha...


 Love is beautiful..but life is even more wonderful!!!try to enjoy it hehehe...
See ya again friends..

1st day of the second journey..

Hai friend..
Seems it's been quite long since last time wrote blog hehehe..
Feels like kind new one for me actually hahah..
Anyway today is the first day of my college in 2011 and start it with smthing that is not good..

At first I don't know my schedule and I promise to wake up at 7 but the moment I woke up and saw the clock makes my mouth said " Gosh!!! I'm late!!!" Then I quickly skip bath,then I changed my trousers and run as fast as I could to my university..when I arrive'I check the shedule and shout one more time ' Gosh!! I truly late this time!!!" realised that the time woke up which is 9 am is the time my first lesson start..hahaha...

All of you can imagine the continue of the story wkwkwkw...

What a horrible morning heh??
Yet still try to enjoy it wkwkwkwkw...

I think that's all.. see ya again peps..wkwkkw

New Year!!!New Year!!!!hahaha

it seems today is the first day of 2011 i write blog hehehehe...

love it so much....thinking about whole things that i've done last year makes who i am right now and maybe now i could start to think what can i do this whole year to create who i am next year......and i need useful things to do of course hahahah....
maybe it's to deep but hopefully you could understand this word heheheh...

this new year is the first time for me not to spend it like play firework,singing,dancing and other fun things but i done it with something real different...
but i like it a lot and because of it i feel some changes happen inside of me....

the last week before new year i realize that i'm so lucky although i can't went home to medan....
I could meet a very honor teacher who teaches us,i meet a lot of friends,even foreigner,i meet a lot of communities,a lot of types from people,their attitude,their way of thinking and living and other else.....
honestly i was very shocked to know that western people are more serious to take this teaching than some of us....
they really focused and they can sit still for an hour....O.O
shocking isn't it....
the truth is I really admire them...really really admire them hahaha
i hope i could meet them again next year...hehehehe
i also hope to meet my teacher again....and could take picture or talk with him personally...hahahah

so....maybe next year i still won't going home hehehhe....

have a nice day friends...sometimes there's some choices to choose...each one have the positive and negative...choose the best and try not to regret your decision....
just be happy heheheh...

see ya peeps...